My husband and I recently taught a workshop in Vermont about the Spirituality of Relationships—the title of a Pathwork Lecture—but the workshop was really about love.
I was walking in the woods a few days later with nothing particular on my mind and started to think about a woman I know who wanted to become a mother about 10 years ago. She told me she was going to manifest this. She was older at the time and I was cynical. By that point I had had many failed attempts at having a child.
I will tell anyone who will listen that not having a child is my biggest disappointment or regret in my life. As I walked through the woods I began to think about disappointment and regret and my story about it began to turn upside down. A new truth emerged. My friend had approached being a mother with a full open heart. My approach was different. I had conditions. I had wanted a baby of my own with my husband, Tom. I could feel the constraints I put on my heart. And therefore I could feel that I had created different results than my friend whose son is now nine years old. There was no judgement about the different results I had created and I do not wish for my friend’s life, but my sad story seemed to vanish in the light of the truth of my own creation….